“Hungover” is a testament to Mothica’s strength and an emotional revelation about her past.
“When I started writing songs for this album, I knew I wanted to write about my drinking problem in a way that wouldn’t alienate people who don’t have problems with addiction,” said Mothica. “I personified alcohol, because that’s what it was to me. It was my best friend, lover, confidant, hype man, all wrapped in a seductive bottle marked poison. There were countless hangovers I spent crying in the bathroom, claiming I’d never do it again, and so it felt fitting to start the project out with Hungover, rather than end with it.”
Mothica is the audio/visual project of Oklahoma born McKenzie Ellis. And her deep dive into her music career (some would call it a ‘self-awakening’ experiment), started with her self-produced EP, ‘Mythic’ (2015). It garnered fab reviews and put her on tastemakers radar. Her track ‘No One’ reached the #6 spot on Spotify’s US Viral Charts and her hit-single ‘Clear’ pushed the attention of everyone (from Teen Vogue to Spotify execs).
Now, after 2 more EPs (‘Heavy Heart’ and ‘Ashes’) she comes back with her second single release from her upcoming debut album, ‘Blue Hour’.
“I had the song title ‘Blue Hour’ in my notes from 2015,” expanded Mothica. “It was the first ever song title idea I had, but I never could find the right place for it until now. Blue hour is the time of day when the sky is painted a deep, rich shade of blue right before sunrise and after sunset. Everything feels so surreal and cinematic, but it only lasts for twenty minutes. It’s a fleeting transition from dark to light that I’ve been looking for in other people, relationships, drugs, alcohol, sex, food, and fantasy.”
“I started writing songs when I was in the thick of my depression, self medicating with drugs and alcohol while desperately seeking a way out. I worked on myself, I started exercising, I found group therapy, and I wrote songs constantly. Something radically shifted in me, and I was given the gift of perspective. I got sober during the writing of this album. Being able to share my honest, raw emotions in the recording studio truly saved my life. I’ve never felt so connected to my purpose as I have with all the music I’m releasing next. This is my blue hour.”
The body and mind, work in interesting ways. Every step, without realizing, bookmark possible urges for the road ahead. Life’s belonging, comes to a heady close, when walls of contempt and confusion from the past, peek out with sentimental chaos.
But so far, to Mothica’s credit, those monsters have been tamed.
She wants her stories to be yours.
See her next @ The Hi Hat, Los Angeles on December 11th.